I had to write a note to Dr Cho earlier this week. In it, I apologized to him for missing the Monday night choir rehearsal.
I didn’t want to write the note. I didn’t want to miss the rehearsal he was leading. But it’s hard to sing when you can’t catch your breath. Or when the quietness after releasing your breath is just as often punctuated by coughing as not.
On Sunday, as I recognized the breathing patterns and the familiar wheeze in my chest, my first reaction was to blame my Creator.
Why, God? Things were going so well. You could have kept this from happening.
Before I go any further, I’d like to give some instructions to the reader. I’m not usually as bossy as all that, but you folks seem to feel sorry for me when I write about these little episodes that come along periodically. You may even worry about my well-being.
But, this time, I want you to read between the lines—and maybe between the words.
Just that morning, our pastor had spoken on the passage in John where Lazarus, a good friend of the Teacher, had died. His sisters had sent for Jesus days before, but He took His sweet time coming.
Martha wasn’t happy, exclaiming, “If you had been here, he wouldn’t have died!”
I hear my own words in hers. As if we (she or I) knew better than the Creator of all that is.
I came down to my little man-cave to write these few words tonight, but I find that, even now, my malady is likely to cut the words short.
I don’t want you to miss this.
God works through our lives—our challenges and our victories—to bring glory to His name and to draw those who are seeing and hearing to Himself. And, we can either be willing participants with Him, or moan and complain the whole way.
He wants good for us. I’ve said it before (and probably will again). His good gifts really do come down from above.
Again and again, they come down.
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord. ‘They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.’“
(Jeremiah 29:11-13, NLT)
My young friend, who had a birthday today, wrote that the past year was his “Jesus year” because he was 33 years old. He told of actions he took to make it memorable as just that. It makes me happy to know men like him who are committed to living like Jesus.
But it also made me sad to remember that in that 33rd year on earth, our Savior gave His life for us. And, I was a little ashamed as I thought of my words when the first little wheeze reached my ears earlier this week.
Are you reading between the lines still?
The Bible says that for the joy that was set before Him, Jesus endured the cross.
There is great joy in the journey. There are moments of trial and near-defeat, too. During the time it’s taken me to write this, I learned of an old saint, my friend, who made his way to his eternal home tonight.
The sadness, the hardship—they’re real. Palpable, at times. I’ll stand up in a minute and make my way into the house to take a puff or two from my inhaler. Later, I’ll awake in the night when I can’t keep from coughing.
It’s what we—all of us—deal with. Life. With its astonishingly beautiful blossoms and its dreadfully painful thorns.
But ahead of us is joy. Pure joy.
With no inhalers or pills. With no tears and hurts. With no separations and no more disappointments.
We’re surrounded by a crowd of witnesses. And we’ve got each other to lean on along the way.
We’ll all sing in the choir again.
Beautiful music.
You can almost hear it from here.
“Sometimes the clearest evidence that God has not deserted you is not that you are successfully past your trial but that you are still on your feet in the middle of it.”
(Dale Ralph Davis)
“Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”
(Hebrews 12: 1-2, NKJV)
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