Fixing the Broken Glass

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It was only a fly.  A dead fly at that.

It’s not the kind of thing I’d ordinarily choose for a subject.  Although I did write about the “trash bug” not all that long ago.  That was small (but not dead).

Still…

I lay on that table again, the one they strap me to, and then stretch my lower spine for ten or fifteen minutes.  Decompression, they call it.  I wondered the first few times if I would walk out a few inches taller than when I limped in.

I didn’t.  But I did feel better.

Now, where was I?  Oh yes.  The dead fly.  It had been there all those times before.  I’d just never concentrated on it.  This time was different.

Lying on that padded table awaiting the strapping-in process, I thought it pertinent to mention the creature in the light fixture above me.  The physical therapist glanced up and laughed.  I suppose she didn’t think it pertinent.

It was only a small thing.  No.  A tiny thing.

And she’s right.  It’s not important at all.  But now it’s stuck in my brain.  So, perhaps the reader will excuse me if I talk about it for a while—this tiny thing.

Come to think about it, I don’t really want to discuss the dead fly at length.  My mind has already leapt past that and is considering another tiny thing.

Do you know that the part of my spine that is defective is only three vertebrae in the lumbar section?  Just over three inches of my over six-foot total body height.

A tiny thing.  Compared to all the rest of me, anyway.

And yet, this tiny thing has brought the physical activities of my entire body to a screeching halt on several occasions recently.  Bending, squatting, lifting, and tying my shoes—all are undertakings nearly impossible during a flare-up.

I talked with a different therapist there this week, complaining that I am not improving as quickly as I did the last go-round.  He listened to my grievances, writing down notes as I whined.  When I finished, he raised his head and, looking into my eyes, asked the question:

“I suggested you should be taking an anti-inflammatory a few weeks ago.  Have you been doing that?”

I haven’t.  You see, I have read somewhere that these miracle drugs actually raise the incidence of dementia in older patients, if taken for too long.  Somehow, things seem to be slipping away at a worrisome pace without speeding up the process any.  And, I’ve certainly seen the catastrophic result for people who graduated to opioids when the body stopped responding to the weaker medications.

I like to look at the big picture.  The end game.  So I refused the recommendation to do that one little thing.

I could have been better already.  It was such a small thing that I needed to do for a very short time.

Small things.

A few decades ago, the policing community started talking about the Broken Windows theory.  It was the belief that small problems left unaddressed (like broken windows in an abandoned house) would breed more and, likely, larger problems.

Whether or not you agree with the criminologist’s theory, there is a truism at work here: small problems left unaddressed do breed larger and more serious issues to be dealt with later.

Lest you think I’m hung up on the negative, let me reassure you.  Just as the hurtful small things breed bigger problems, the beneficial small things that we do and practice habitually are certain to turn into significant blessings, either for us or for the recipients of our attention.

Jesus taught us the theory of small things—Replaced Windows, if you will.  The shepherd who left his 99 sheep safe in the sheep pen to search for the one who was lost in the wilderness.  The woman who searched and searched because one of her ten coins had been misplaced. 

Drinks of water for the thirsty.  Clothes for the destitute.  Food for the hungry.  Visits to the prisoners.

He didn’t stop with suggesting we practice the small gifts to those who would appreciate it, but commanded that we bless those with whom we are angry—perhaps even hate in our own strength.

“Carry their burden twice as far as required.  If they demand your coat, give them the shirt off your back.”

“As much as you did it to the least of these, you did it to Me.” (Matthew 25:40)

You who are musicians will understand when I say that all of music-making is small stuff.  From the length of notes to the tone and the intonation (tuning), from the speed and the rhythm, along with the key signature, the touch of fingers on a piano’s keys or the weight of the bow drawn across a violin’s strings and the velocity of breath directed across the tonehole of the flute, the tiniest of details accumulate to become the massive production of a symphony.

Or the quiet worship in a dark room at midnight.

Small things.  Minuscule.

In more ways than one, music is life. 

And similarly, life is a massive work of art painted one stroke at a time.

His love can turn our childish art project into an astonishing masterpiece.  And our banging on the keys into lovely harmony. 

If we will only yield the small things to Him.

I have a broken window or two that need attention.  And that other tiny part of my body, my tongue, has been at work too, making a wreckage of relationships.

It’s time to tend to the small things.  Again.

My back, along with a few other things, will surely be better soon.

 

“Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.”  (Robert Brault)

“The master was full of praise.  ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant.  You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities.  Let’s celebrate together!'” (Matthew 25:21, NLT)

 

© Paul Phillips. He’s Taken Leave. 2026. All Rights Reserved.

Try Again. Every New Day.

It’s midnight again.  It often is as I begin to write.  I’m not sure why that fact should be of any importance at all.

Midnight is, after all, just a position of the hands on a clock (at least it was on the clocks I grew up with).  Oh, I’m sure there are scientific reasons for midnight being the beginning of another day—a rational “mile marker” for each new time period.  I’m just not sure it deserves the gravitas we ascribe to the hour.

Having said that, I was already thinking about the ends of some days and the beginnings of others before I sat down to write in the moments just before another 24-hour period begins. There is, as the red-headed lady who raised me used to say, “a method to my madness”.  She, perhaps, borrowed the words from the Bard of Avon.  Perhaps.

I’m not sure if folks know this, but I don’t always think about the words I type into this device on my desk.  That’s too often true of the words that proceed from my mouth, as well.  But we’ll talk about that later.

I often snap photos of nature in progress, intending to share them with my friends and acquaintances online.  Then, as I post them on social media, I feel the need for words to accompany the sometimes lovely scenes.

The words come from somewhere—I’m not always certain where.  But sometimes they mean more than I intend to communicate.  You might say more is revealed about the person sharing than the photo itself could ever uncover.

It was a gorgeous sunset a couple of evenings ago.  The clouds cooperated with the lowering light-that-rules-the-day, and the resulting glory was moving, to say the least.  And for a few moments, as I stood on the edge of a nearby field, I saw the colors of the rainbow in the cloud, a sundog, some call it.  I was too slow to capture that with my camera, but it lives in my memory as part of the sunset.

“Glory at the dying of the day.  I think I’ll try again tomorrow.  You?”

Those were the words I wrote.  I should have stopped with the initial sentence.  It would have sufficed.  More than sufficed.

What did that next part mean?  I’ll try again tomorrow?  

Really?

I left the words.  They stayed in my head all through that night. 

They were there when I opened my eyes in the morning.

Why?  I think I know.

Are you ever disappointed with your actions at the end of a day?  Your words?  Your thoughts?

I am. Frequently.

I let myself be led into an argument the other day.  I’ve said it wouldn’t happen anymore, but there I was—insisting that I was right and he was wrong.  And not long before that, I made a joke that hurt a friend.  I apologized, but I can’t take back the words.  Or the hurt.

And my physical limitations these days make it so I am afraid even to attempt some normal activities.  Things I want to do.  Things I need to do.

So, I arrive at the end of some days, looking back and wishing I could get a do-over.

I didn’t mean to tell my friends and family that I was disappointed with myself.  I would rather hide that.  Let me work on it in private.  They’ll get to see the finished product.

But somehow, my secret is out.  

I want a do-over.  

I think the words on the screen needed to be said.  And, even though I often blabber away much more than I should, they were meant for me to write and share.

I’m not the only one who needs a do-over tomorrow, am I?  

I’m not the only person I know who sometimes feels like a failure at the end of the day.  I’m sure I’m not. 

We need a do-over.  

We can have one.

Our Creator and Savior is the God of redemption—of second chances.  Of do-overs.

I’ve used the verses repeatedly when I write.  I will again in the future.  God said these words through His prophet.

I’m counting on them being His promise to me—and to us.

“Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.” (Lamentations 21-23, NLT)

I still dare. To hope.  

Those mercies that begin anew every morning don’t have to wait until the sun cracks the horizon between earth and sky.  He ordained the day and night.  He knows when the new day starts.

I’m believing in those new mercies now—after midnight.

It is, after all, morning.

Time for a do-over.

 

“Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, start all over again.” (from Pick Yourself Up, by Dorothy Fields)

“And if the day passes and our efforts were stunted by the bane of our insecurities or blunted by the challenges of life, does not a sunset invite us to rest before it whispers the same message the next morning?” (Craig D. Lounsbrough)

 

© Paul Phillips. He’s Taken Leave. 2026. All Rights Reserved.

Can You Carry Me?

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My writer friend posted one of those questions the other day.  It asked something like, if you were invited to preach and the last text you wrote is the title of your sermon, what are you speaking about?

Just for fun, I copied the last text I had written and sent it.

“That’s fine.  We should be able to get you there.”

She replied, saying those words “would preach,” but I was skeptical.

I’ve had a few wakeful nights since then and, having rolled the words around in my head a bit, have decided they just might.  Preach, that is.  Not that anyone wants me to do that.

I remember hearing an old timer say the words years ago: “My car isn’t running right now, so I asked my neighbor to carry me to town today.”

What an odd thing to say!

Carry me?

Why would you suggest that someone carry you?  You’re just getting into their old pickup to ride a mile or two to the grocery store.  I wonder. 

But that’s just what it is, isn’t it?  The weight of the friend rests entirely in the vehicle, being carried from the point of origin to the destination.

Carry me.

Some folks who read this will remember hearing the words.  In a different lifetime, it was.  A group called The Hollies sang the song.

“The road is longWith many a winding turnThat leads us to who knows where, who knows where.But I’m strong,Strong enough to carry him.He ain’t heavy, he’s my brother.”
(from He Ain’t Heavy, He’s My Brother, by Bob Russell and Bobby Scott) 

The title came from a slogan that Boys Town, the orphanage for boys in Omaha, Nebraska, has used for many years.  The story goes that one of the older boys was lugging a younger, physically handicapped boy up a staircase when Father Flanagan suggested the load might be too much for him.

Somewhat exasperated, the young man is reputed to have retorted those exact words: “He ain’t heavy.  He’s my brother.”

The words had been used before.  And have been since.

But, in these troubled days we’re living through, I wonder if we’ve forgotten just what they mean.  The boys knew their meaning.  Implicitly.

And we should.

“And a certain man from Samaria, as he traveled, passed by and, seeing him lying there, felt compassion.  He bound up his wounds, using wine and oil to clean them and, lifting him onto his mount physically, carried him to a nearby inn, caring for him there.”  (Luke 10:33-34, my paraphrase)

He carried him.

Because he wasn’t heavy.

I am the son of a preacher, but not one myself.  I can’t bring myself to tell others how to respond to these words. Not very preacherly, am I?

But, I have been carried myself. 

I will doubtless need carrying again.

So what do we do when there is no one to carry us?

Our God will carry us when others fail us.  And they have.  And they will.

“I have cared for you since you were born. Yes, I carried you before you were born. I will be your God throughout your lifetime— until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you.”  (Isaiah 46:3-4, NLT)

The words were written to the faithful in Israel, God’s Chosen People.  But the principle applies to us as those who have been grafted into His family.

Not like those who worship idols that are only dead weight to be carried by their worshippers, our God, instead, carries us.

He carries me.

And when I stop to really consider that astonishing truth, I am convinced there is only one rational reaction.

How can I do less than carry my brother—my neighbor?

How can we do less?

 

“If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders,
I know, my brother, that He will carry you.”
(from He Will Carry You, by Scott Wesley Brown)

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.”
(Galatians 6:2, NIV)

 

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